Hello Jed,
I have a couple of annoying questions
In your first book, you say "Don't trust anyone, think for yourself". Why should I trust you that I shouldn't trust anyone and think for myself? How do I know, you're for real?
If awakening is about the truth and stripping away all beliefs, at first beliefs are all you have. Is a existence of truth only another belief until you see for yourself? Isn't trusting you only another belief?
I feel that my ego is quite tricky, it gives me an illusion of seeing through the bull***t, while it by design prevents me from seeing through it's own bull***t. How do I know, that I am actually stripping away the layers and not only building a bigger dellusion?
If I need nobody and nothing to realize the truth, what are my questions other than need of my ego to get validation and distraction?
If I believe that I know the answers, why am I even asking?
How do I know, that I have took the first step and not only being delluded by my ego, which would be trying to protect itself?
Will the next step come to me or do I have to come to it?
Thanks