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Pandora

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A ride to nowhere
« on: May 30, 2017, 05:21:24 pm »
Dear Jed,

I woke up a few months ago and your books appeared in my life in a very right moment after that (like everything does, right) and were the most conscious reading I have ever had.
Everything started to make sense and there is where my ride began.

I've been trying to post here for a few weeks but my mind is working so fast, everything gets old as soon as I had thought about it or wrote it down.
Same with trying to explain to anyone what is happening with me or just trying to make it into words out loud or on paper.
And then I've read your advice in the "theory of everything" about not getting caught up in the wording and worrying only about the meaning, and I realized I was stuck with trying to express myself.

At the moment I enjoy loosing control which, as I believed before, was my great ability(ahahaha), struggling through letting go things and people (this is really hard) I've been attached, observing mainly and catching all this BS I'm carrying around and throwing it away.
Actually things are going pretty fast, ups and downs are no longer feeling like a free-fall drop ride, more like roller-coaster  ;)

I feel like I might need this forum for some checkin-in purpose, maybe for now.. some questions might pop up later, or not  :P
Or maybe could use it as a journal till it won't be necessary.
So if you don't mind it would be nice to get in touch with the "alive teacher" as there is such a chance.

Later Further,
X

P.S. I have never asked or looked for this, it has just started to happen to me and thanks to your books I had something to tell me "you're ok". Thank you.

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Re: A ride to nowhere
« Reply #1 on: May 30, 2017, 10:50:48 pm »
Dear Pandora:

Thank you for you post and welcome to the forum.

You are more than O.K., you are perfect. What you are experience regarding the past, remnants of stories that remain and letting go of relationships is pretty much SOP (standard operating procedure). Everyone goes through something similar, the key words being ''goes though''. Write here any time you feel moved to and don't hesitate to ask for ''pointers''.

Love ya, Jed.

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Re: A ride to nowhere
« Reply #2 on: June 05, 2017, 11:33:00 am »
Dear Jed,

Gratitude it is.

I thought I have opened the Pandora's box when I woke up, it was scary and I didn't have courage to look inside and I even wished I have never found it, but when I got myself together and rushed into (took lots of guts) - there was nothing there and I forgot all the bad and good things ever happened to me. The box turned out to be inside myself and it was just silly not to look.

There is only one thing I know and you know what it is  ;)

I would better write a book, but will do my own research first.
Actually, I have a good idea for the first one.

I am a kid in front of a toy shop where are no adults and I can do anything I want.
I'm about to come in.

Further,
X

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Re: A ride to nowhere
« Reply #3 on: June 05, 2017, 11:47:24 am »
 ;) ;) ;) ;)

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Re: A ride to nowhere
« Reply #4 on: June 14, 2017, 06:15:33 am »
Hello there,

I see the forum is expanding and you have hired someone (a volunteer?) to administrate it, probably.

I like the idea of revolution to happen someday, and I see that more people are opening their eyes and start to ask questions.
Even around me, ever since I have this "realization" experience (I'm not talking about T/R, I still need so much work to do) or  "first step" if using your words, it has been dragging people to me to talk about it or to ask them some pointing questions.

The intention to write a book or to become a coach or something is very powerful in me and it is transforming while my mind is trying to apply this intention to the reality I live in.
I feel it will all work out somehow finally, not sure how, but I need just to go where my legs will bring me.

Incredible power is coming when you get free from your fears and illusions.

As for the revolution (conversation with Frank from Jed's notebook), I think something bigger than just people arising should happen to shake this world, a war or our planet collapses (a war is more possible). Anything that big would be Maya's work, so it would be just another "illusion" of revolution.

Any effort or intention to act for some bigger idea is meaningless (like everything is), but if we are stuck in these bodies for a while I would like to do something so people would enjoy it more. Because its all we have. Just to live this dream, so why suffer?

Regards,
X
 

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Re: A ride to nowhere
« Reply #5 on: June 14, 2017, 06:19:58 am »
Yes, live the dream and why suffer.... hell of an approach... now have you fully embraced it?

Love ya, Jed.

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Re: A ride to nowhere
« Reply #6 on: June 14, 2017, 06:36:28 am »
I'm working on it, need some time to integrate in this new way and all the aspects to go in right direction (without any resistance...).
But I see it clear.

By hell of an approach you mean? (sorry, this is not my native language).
I just can't imagine any reason to suffer (for me of course), I remember I did, but it's just no longer possible for me.
As it happened not so long ago, I will try to describe the process (in writing or in talking and writing it down then) and maybe there will be some use for this information.
But this is not for everybody for sure..


Regards,
X
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Re: A ride to nowhere
« Reply #7 on: June 14, 2017, 07:15:31 am »
I suggest you look into what is your motivation in writing it down or talking about it. There is something for you to learn here.

Love ya, Jed

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Re: A ride to nowhere
« Reply #8 on: June 15, 2017, 04:12:50 am »
Thank you for the pointer, I didn't want to look there.

Sometimes I have no clear reason or motivation to do something or to go somewhere, I just do and my legs just go and only after something happens ("unfolds") it becomes clear. 
But when any thought of a reason/motivation/target/result willing/expectation comes in - that's it, that's Ego talking.

Am I getting it right?
Can I have experience of the "pure intentions" along with ego-based ones?

Thank you in advance.

Regards,
X

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Re: A ride to nowhere
« Reply #9 on: June 15, 2017, 10:24:50 am »
How do you define a ''pure intention'''?

Love ya, Jed.

Pandora

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Re: A ride to nowhere
« Reply #10 on: June 15, 2017, 03:04:05 pm »
A pure intention is no intention.
No background to the action, no expectation of a result/benefit, no fear of a fail.
I just go and do.
With a flow. And this flow is everything.
If I would try to explain it with an example like "I just went there and met someone he said me something which was very timely, such a coincidence, like universe is telling me something" it would be wrong because it would give some reasons and timeframes to some actions.
So, probably, a pure intention is timeless and willingness.
Is it just words to explain something you can't explain?

I might be mistaken, but I have no doubts when I'm in the flow.
And everything is beautiful. Just as it is and as it happens. No matter what. 

Regards,
X

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Re: A ride to nowhere
« Reply #11 on: June 16, 2017, 01:51:01 am »
I don't get there is any problem with you or your experiences. Just enjoy the ride.

Love ya, Jed.
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Re: A ride to nowhere
« Reply #12 on: June 16, 2017, 02:16:53 am »
I am.
 
Thank you, Jed.

Regards,
X

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Re: A ride to nowhere
« Reply #13 on: June 30, 2017, 11:51:19 am »
Hello, Jed

The doubt and fear has left the building.

My today's realization is the actual nature of my recent motivations and desires, which has brought me to the place where I start seeing the mountain as the mountain again.
If more specifically, with hard work on letting go, overcoming weaknesses and resistance to all temptations more and more layers which were distorting my vision came off.
 
Maya tried to knock me down in so many ways, it was a tough fight.
I'm not fighting anymore.

I wanted to make a record of this stage as when I could see the gates, but I'm not waiting for a right time to pass them anymore.

Just a few things left.
It feels like coming back somewhere (nowhere, hehe).

So, see me coming.

Regards,
X

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Re: A ride to nowhere
« Reply #14 on: June 30, 2017, 03:14:56 pm »
Who or what seeks to work on letting go, overcoming weaknesses and resistance to all temptations?

Simple, but not easy. Resistance means persistence. Look deeper. Don't struggle, just look.

Love ya, Jed.