Hi;
The real you was never born and thus can never die.
The reason you failed at taking your life is because you didn't really want to die. And the reason you are talking about it now is because you want attention. I suggest you simply grow up. That may sound a little harsh, but it is a reality. You appear in this dream, and to all your problems I say what you should be saying, ''So what?''. You are going to drop your body some day, why not have a little fun before that happens. It's up to you. No one can do this for you.
Love ya, Jed.