I really can't explain much at all. If you think you can manifest via such methods, but my thoughts have change on that.
If you really want to manifest, I suggest you start with absolute acceptance of all that arises... and I mean everything. It's all an illusion so what's the harm in accepting of responsibility for it, sans guilt and fault.. just pure acceptance. Try it and see what arises next.. and be responsible for that as well.
Love ya, Jed.