INVISIBLE GURU FORUM

Dear Jed,

Went trough some nasty **** in a couple of days. And when the work was done and peace came “Me” rised again. “Me” is expecting good things now. “Me” wants to be proud of herself. “Me” want´s to do stuff and get goodies.

Does this rising ever stop? Getting really tired of it. I mean really tired.

Dear Jed,

Did it. It vanished. After this inside spread out an depression kind of feeling: me was busted again and didn`t get anything to build itself. It can try again but it will not survive I think. It has never been “alive” in the first place. Me “A” I mean. Not some kind of detached part of myself but the hole bullshit identity.

Enough with the “spiritual talk”. I don´t like it. It has started to feel more and more fake (and contaminated): Self, Ego, consciousness, oneness and so on. I don´t mean anything bad, but some of the stuff in you´re book´s also. It doens´t feel so real anymore.

Getting ready to stand on my own two feet. Crying but still.

Thank you.

Dear Jed,

Confused here also. Nobody`s gotta be anything other what they are or more precisely how they manifest in. I just told how I feel. And thank you for the welcome.

A