Dear H;
Thank you for your questions. Truth (the Void, God, Infinite capacity for all that arises, etc.) has no want or desire at all. Wants and desires arise spontaneously upon what you really are. Everything is causeless. Consciousness arises on the child and their ''I am'' hijacks it and claims ownership, from which develops the personality. ALL A DREAM.
As Nis said so well, contemplate who and what you were 8 day before you were conceived. Stay with that.
Love ya, Jed.