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Frits

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Re: Back again
« Reply #30 on: November 10, 2015, 12:44:15 pm »
Still trying to figure out where I am at, though I already know, my mind (ego? Maya?) is having trouble coping with it.

Anyway. You say in your books that you needed 10 years to become accustomed to your awakening. Is that true? I mean, is that the time needed to adjust?

I am asking this because I've traced my waking up -- I call it "my implosion" because the whole universe imploded into me within less than a second -- to October 2011. This is based on memory and the writing I have been doing since (roughly) 1998. I got all my former thoughts in writing, apparently I have been doing Autolysis since 1998, way before you ever wrote a book about it.

Funny, no?

Again, anyway! This would mean that I got another 6 years to go before I am fully at ease with my awakening. Or, do you think it can "happen" faster than 10 years?

Like, 10 years is an estimate...

Any wise words on this?

Cheers, Frits.

Oh, PS and such: I absolutely love your books but kinda dislike your plays... well, I think they're crap... just for the record this is. :)

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« Reply #31 on: November 16, 2015, 12:48:53 pm »
You didn't feel like answering the question I posted, and I get that. No expectations. Ten years, twenty years, who gives a  s h i t ?

So this means I am all out of questions, because I know what you know and what everyone can know. I went to the place you call "done" and had to turn around, like we all have to, and now I have no idea what to do. I tried to be a part of the seeking people do, but I am done seeking. I am at the parking-lot of the amusement-park wondering why I left.

But I did leave... I had no choice... And it feels kinda cool.

Thank you for the books, they're time-bombs. I wish you the best. I'm gonna stick around just to read what the rest is doing, that is my amusement-park now until I find a new one.

Again, thank you.

Frits.

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Re: Back again
« Reply #32 on: November 17, 2015, 12:54:18 am »
Cheers mate...

Love ya, Jed.

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Re: Back again
« Reply #33 on: November 25, 2015, 01:04:11 am »
Every morning when I wake up I have traded an old illusion for a new one, hoping to trade this one for the next one. In fact, every second I trade one illusion for the next and the next for the next. And we're all crazy like that, because it is the only way to survive in this spacesuit. It's that or be gone, so there's no reason to not let it be like that, because it apparently IS like that.

Chill, Frits.

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Re: Back again
« Reply #34 on: November 25, 2015, 01:35:01 am »
You aren't going to survive any suit anyways... why bother trying. Die to it all and see what arises.

Love ya, Jed.

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Re: Back again
« Reply #35 on: November 28, 2015, 05:50:38 pm »
I think I'm dead already.

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Re: Back again
« Reply #36 on: November 29, 2015, 03:54:01 am »
Who says?

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Re: Back again
« Reply #37 on: November 29, 2015, 04:57:45 am »
The one who needs to believe he is alive...

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« Reply #38 on: November 30, 2015, 12:50:15 am »
Great Frits: you have combined a need and a believe, and what is left  ??? ??? :o :o :o

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« Reply #39 on: November 30, 2015, 02:02:47 am »
A lie upon a lie, which means that this "one who says" is "no-one" + "no-one" which = selfless self or a no-self which in turn is but a concept to express something that isn't here at all.

So back to the question "Who says?" ... The answer is: I don't know who (or what), but not me, cos I ain't here.

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Re: Back again
« Reply #40 on: December 01, 2015, 12:04:12 am »
Cheers mate...

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Re: Back again
« Reply #41 on: December 01, 2015, 12:11:20 pm »
Uh... does that mean I got it right and will get a stamp from the teacher on my paper?

Never mind.

I saw Maya today, lurking in shadows. She's still trying to pull me back every now and then, even though she knows I am lost to her. She tries every once in a while and then I nod and smile, and she nods and smiles back at me. I know she has to try and she knows I know. She sends her regards, she remembers you and misses you.  ;D

Cheers, Jed, have a very merry Christmas.

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Re: Back again
« Reply #42 on: December 02, 2015, 12:11:19 am »
Tell here I'm saving a place on my dance card for her. Perhaps around Christmas... that's when she is around big time.

Love ya, Jed.

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Re: Back again
« Reply #43 on: December 19, 2015, 04:22:03 pm »
So...

My experience at this moment in time is that, after you wake up, you see it is just a show, and then, after some "look at me I am enlightened" period, you again join the crowd -- which still believes the show is real -- to enjoy the show, but knowing it is a play. And while watching the show you take the time to welcome any "one" who awakens from the dream state to show him or her this is the show and this is how to come back to the crowd... joining the show but never truly believing it.

Anyway, this is where I am at and it is the most relaxing place I have ever been in the 50 years I have been alive.

Does this in any way correspond with what you are experiencing?

Merry Christmas, Frits.

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Re: Back again
« Reply #44 on: December 20, 2015, 05:42:34 am »
Hi Frits:

To the degree that language permits, yes, it does resemble my experiences (non-experiences). Integrating the gift can be quite challenging and things like your need for reassurance, insecurities and desire to help will continue to a degree out of sheer habit developed over years. Now comes the important question of how you will handle them, or, once you realize it, how you deal with knowing that you don't have any say in the matter.

Merrily, merrily, merrily, merrily, life is but a dream.

Love ya, Jed.