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Royaalss1

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Back for less with less
« on: November 02, 2017, 07:50:16 am »
Haven't posted here in a while.. I decided too stop looking for answers and really focus on my questions and have been doing a lot of writing just looking, if I've really progressed idk but what has happened is the self thst I am being a non existent thing has become pretty clear too me (even though ive read it over and over somehow I see it now) when I'm looking but I'm still almost totally caught up in the drama of my character. How can I go a little deeper in the writing? Like I can see it but its still there, there has to be another level of scrutiny maybe you can advise me on were or what to scrutinize?
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Jed McKenna

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Re: Back for less with less
« Reply #1 on: November 02, 2017, 09:21:40 am »
Hi RA:

Welcome back. I suggest you just do more of what you have been doing, and add a little patience.

Have said that, good work. Now further.

Love ya, Jed.

Royaalss1

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Re: Back for less with less
« Reply #2 on: November 02, 2017, 02:21:47 pm »
Ok. Will do. Also I decided too actually do an assignment you gave me months ago to read all my old posts and discovered that a portion of them are missing all from when I was first making progress... in between my initial posts and when I was having a hard time a few months back. My intention isn't to complain at all here (and sorry to waste a post with kind of a non-question) but too see if there's any possible way to access them because id be curious to see if anything useful is there. If not I guess I'm not meant too see them so whatever.

Ill post again when I find a question actually worth asking, a surprisingly hard thing to find.

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Re: Back for less with less
« Reply #3 on: November 04, 2017, 09:13:59 am »
.... looks like you weren't meant to see them... neither was I.

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Re: Back for less with less
« Reply #4 on: November 07, 2017, 02:12:55 pm »
I can't really explain what's happening right now except that my head feels really strange. The front part by my forehead. Also the outside world looks kind of cartoonish most of the time.

Have you ever heard of anyone "waking up" having these symptoms?

I'd think I was going crazy or something but I've herd of people in the "pickup" (girls) industry having similar feelings when there making progress becquse your brain is rewiring itself. (Pick up involves pushing the boundries of self because you realize your not who you thought you were.. Going out nite after nite being humiliated than eventually realizing it was all in your own head when your surpass your sticking point and a new reality is before you)

I don't have a headache or anything but this is just really weird I'm trying to just go about my day but its like people are speaking a different language than I am and I can't muster up an ounce of caring about it weather its my boss or whatever.

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« Reply #5 on: November 08, 2017, 02:57:27 am »
Not an uncommon experience. Enjoy.

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Re: Back for less with less
« Reply #6 on: November 14, 2017, 12:52:30 pm »
Everything I am all of my urges thoughts etc are Maya. Fear. They feel like resistance. Being aware is interesting and clarifying but wtf have i been doing my whole life not being aware? Sleep walking. I am, and know nothing else, I am is what is, and in that space there's the personality. That stupid **** thing. And thts the only thing in the way of just being. How do I seperare from that.. Writing about it I seem to just get caught up in details about it, quite hard to seperare from what you are. Its like a stain on my consciousness. How do I get rid of it?

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Re: Back for less with less
« Reply #7 on: December 06, 2017, 03:29:19 pm »
I'm in the midst of magic but my personal existence is he'll, I tell myself its a story but it changes nothing. Just anything you can see based on what I wrote about my situatjpn I'd like to hear, please

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« Reply #8 on: December 06, 2017, 06:44:26 pm »
You situation is all illusion, although it may appear to be very real, that is the trick. Remember, if you seek T/R it doesn't lie in anything that is an experience, it is what all experiences occur within. I suggest you just ignore experiences and focus on their context. Love ya Jed.