Mr Jed, you have closed ALL doors that I belive were the way out from the dream to the truth.
I belived that total surrender was the way out, and now you say that total surrender is still in the dream but it makes it more fun.
I belived also that be in "the now" was the way out of the dream state, but you say in your books that "the now" do not exist.
I belived that "stop thinking" was the way out, you say "no"
I know that you say that the Spiritual Autolisis is the door, but I have made it and I havenīt found anything true, i have found that I am nothing, only a body feeling, living, no more or less than a fly or a dog or a rat.
I canīt accept that I am so little, almost nothing, I belived that I will find something great at the end of the autolisys. but no.
I am now in the middle of nowhere, I know that all my life was a lie, was a stupid game, a rat race to nowhere.
Please show me the exit door (if there is one)
Thank you