good morning,
im from germany, so if my english here isnt readable, please tell me and i will try to express myself better.
i read your first book 10 years ago, since then, everything was...a little diffrent. there is always this..thought/feeling , that there is something i dont see or dont understand.
since then there is this uncomfortable emotion, that i miss something that is right infront of me and im to blind to see it.
im kinda afraid, that if im dying, this one thought will be my last thought: that i miss something in my life.
if there is one thing in your books that really marked me, i would be the whole death part in your third book.
everything else is fine, of course...but it all doenst matter at deaths door. i will die, maybe today, tomorrow or in 50 years...doenst matter.
and heres my problem: i know that. i know, that im going to die, maybe in one hour when im outside, driving to my moms house to drink a god damn coffee. sunday, the 30th august, 1pm, bleeding on the stress of emden, germany because a 19year old fucker wanted to impress his new girlfriend with his fast car and didnt see me coming with the bike...end of my story, for no reason.
so, tell me...why im still sitting on my chair infront of my computer, kinda sleeping through the day, through my whole life although i know this could be my last day?
it sounds so easy to wake up.....just open your eys,
****! youre going to die!
but everyday i feel so sluggish and tired, like im asleep and all of this is just a dream (whoa!)
im pray for death experience, and i want them everyday, every minute until im awake and can say: yes, thats it!
ps: i never posted in forums before, so apologize if all of this look a littlebit weird.
greetings,
bjoern