How the
**** could I ever believe you idiot. I've been deluded by you for years, you have nothing to give so why even make a forum about it here? You're a
**** fraud.
You and your books have kept me busy for years, trying to find out what's true, but there's no such thing like it. I've been here just to disassociate myself from the burning pain and fear inside of me, and the REST OF YOU ARE TOO. I've been bound by your books to soothe and fool myself thinking that this is THE answer, soothing myself with ideas that there are no ideas, that I don't exist, that nothing exists, just to ignore all of my fear, just to ignore this
**** pain inside.
All this pain and bullshit is now heaped up inside of me because of your
**** called 'anti-spirituality', I can't see anything through it, I've ignored it for so
**** long.
Why did I think this was the answer? I've wasted so many fuckin years with this BULLSHIT spirituality and your book is NO DIFFERENT.
I should've never started this.
**** you Jed, you've
**** me up. There's no way out of this. I've completely lost my mind.