Whoa Ching:
You're talking about wasting time and all you are doing is pointing at others. I previously asked you to speak in the first person, about your self. How do you know what others need? How do you know my motivation and skill-set? Do you even know good from bad? I will make allowance for the fact you're not a native English speaker, but you know English quite well and know the difference between the first person and third person.
The forum is one on one, you and I. I don't need your assistance although I do learn from much of what comes my way. But, you need me... that obvious because otherwise you wouldn't be here.
Now, if you want to make some headway, start sharing 'you', not what think about others. That won't get you anywhere, just a ****-fest. We had a belly full of that on the last forum. No more.
You said 'But why can you waste so many resources to achieve your goal? ( learning, entertainment, expressing B.S. , wasting time?'. And, 'I know it isn’t my business and maybe it's just my illusion. But I consider this forum if full of "someone's" numerous articles.'. If it isn't your business what are you doing talking about it? Focus.
How can you possibly know what is wasting time or life-saving. Flat out... you don't. If you want to stick around here, STOP focusing on your complaints and look at yourself very closely. Then tell me a bit about what you find. Turn your vision around and find out what you are 'learning, entertaining, expressing b.s. about and wasting time about'. That way we might get somewhere. There is a huge difference between saying 'I feel a knot in my stomach' and 'I think he is an ****'. One opens doors and the other slams them shut.
I have too many courageous folks who are willing to spill their guts to someone they have never even met, i.e., me. If you can comply with the foregoing, I will do everything in my power to nudge you further. If you can't do that then I can't assist you and it's best you leave, or as you put it... 'expressing b.s.' somewhere else.
Keep in mind, that is absolutely nothing 'out there', everything you are seeing is you. There is only One, not two, ever. If you witness b.s. it's your b.s. and no body else's. It's not bad, just is. Being aware is the first step.
Love ya, Jed.