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Jed McKenna

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Re: Coming to an End
« Reply #45 on: December 31, 2020, 12:23:04 am »
Sounds just fine to me. Pathways marking progress to nowhere.

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« Reply #46 on: December 31, 2020, 05:30:51 am »
So...Nothing exists, eh? Yet it's all here. It just does itself without "me". Never mattered that I thought was there. Never will. Funny to think I ever had a claim to any of this. My anguish has subsided only long enough for me to see there was nothing to fuss about and no one here to fuss.
There's only a curiosity to see the further implications of this.
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Jed McKenna

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Re: Coming to an End
« Reply #47 on: January 02, 2021, 10:36:01 pm »
Sounds perfectly perfect to me.

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« Reply #48 on: January 07, 2021, 11:24:11 pm »
Deepening this seeing for now. Life just lives itself. Personal will is slowly being replaced by awareness. It's like I'm seeing from a different set of eyes. I still walk around with the minor fear of negative feelings passing through. But the mind interpretations of them are losing their sway.
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Jed McKenna

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Re: Coming to an End
« Reply #49 on: January 07, 2021, 11:58:02 pm »
That's what I like to hear.

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Re: Coming to an End
« Reply #50 on: January 12, 2021, 12:37:05 am »
I keep checking back with this seeing and I realize the main thing that's dropped away is the question of what "it" is. I'm not looking for "something" anymore. No longer looking for an "enlightenment" experience. There's only a healthy doubt left now. I used to read and dream about it, but now there's no point; the mind uses it to confuse and obscure what is already here. It is so simple that the mind is both relieved, disappointed, and in disbelief. Which is why I keep checking back.
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« Reply #51 on: January 14, 2021, 11:15:42 pm »
I really don't know a SINGLE thing. Not one singular thing, except that existence IS. My mind thinks a bunch of non-dual understandings, but even that is unnecessary. What do I ACTUALLY know if I don't think about the teachings/pointers? The video-watching is starting to wane away. Increasingly, all I'm left with is this not-knowing. I know nothing and yet everything that needs to be done, is done.
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Jed McKenna

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Re: Coming to an End
« Reply #52 on: January 14, 2021, 11:23:37 pm »
Yes, what 'appears' to get done, 'appears' to get done.

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« Reply #53 on: January 20, 2021, 10:57:39 pm »
Not even the darkest, blackest experience can be darker than that which knows it.
I've been trying to understand this "subjective light" that some teachers talk about, and it finally made sense when I turned off the lights in my bathroom. It's the "light" that allows one to know itself as darkness. And by extension, as all experience.
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Re: Coming to an End
« Reply #54 on: January 31, 2021, 11:35:58 pm »
It's almost as if stimulus and reaction arise in the same place: right here. Sound occurs here, sight occurs here, thought, emotion, etc. Thought comes in and overlays some kind of time-based story on it to make sense to itself. More and more I'm starting to see my own being as natural and the mind-generated stories and actions as a distortion on what is. Even noticing may be too much effort. It's starting to feel more like resting as.
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Jed McKenna

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Re: Coming to an End
« Reply #55 on: February 02, 2021, 12:39:17 am »
Good work my friend,

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Re: Coming to an End
« Reply #56 on: February 04, 2021, 09:30:03 pm »
Turmoil and tears the last couple of days. Old stuff coming up. These troubles used to be a daily issue with brief periods of tentative peace. But recently it seems to have flopped to where the troubles are the brief interruptions. I just can't seem to "lose myself" no matter how bad it gets.
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« Reply #57 on: February 09, 2021, 11:17:14 pm »
Past few days I seem to be "forgetting" myself more and more. It's like life is just happening, but when "I" look back, only then it appears that something occurred. It's kinda like enjoying a good laugh, then remembering you have a big test tomorrow. The laughter dies as you are sucked back into time and worry. I feel like I'm in a lull of the more intense emotions, for now. I see more of an allowing of even "minor" emotions, like jealousy, annoyance, indignance, etc. It's kinda fun to see those play out, too.
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Jed McKenna

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Re: Coming to an End
« Reply #58 on: February 10, 2021, 08:34:42 pm »
It fun to watch this whole dream play out, and especially fun when you realize it has nothing to do with You.

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Re: Coming to an End
« Reply #59 on: February 16, 2021, 07:18:29 am »
These days it's starting to feel like 'DEATH' is simply 'death'. 'LIFE' is simply 'life'. 'GOALS & DREAMS' are more like 'goals and dreams'. Even the NOTHINGNESS I am is just a very simple 'nothing'. Like the volume knob on my mind is being turned down. Mind is only scared of truth when it imagines it to be something other than what I AM. I see how this fear can be endless because the "I" that fears draw its supposed existence from an infinite source. ME.
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