So you're saying that enlightenment or h/a (idk) doesn't led you anywhere, that there's no specific manifestation to it, no good health, no financial abundance, no women, just you? That pretty much means I could be enlightened at any time as long as I stop chasing right? So this is it. It's quite disappointing. Just being fat, isolated, whatever. just enjoy it right? Sigh, I guess what else is there to do?