High there and welcome to the forum.
You have given me very little to work with... other than the fact that you appear to be depressed and want to help others who are experiencing depression. STOP right there! As you are probably aware, there is no point in helping others until you have figured your own way out.. and I can tell you from extensive experiences, most people love their depression. It becomes an identity and, contrary to logic, it becomes who they think they actually are... which is b.s. of course.
So, so the short strokes, convince me that you want out, I mean really want out.
Love ya, Jed.