INVISIBLE GURU FORUM

Stick to your own thread, i.e., no cross-talk.

As this "no questions" deepens I'm finding the blah blah blah less interesting and the desire to engage fading, might be just for today but today is the forever/now. I'm guessing there's a honeymoon period I'm working with here and the infatuation with and discussion of the new paradigm will wane into...?

At the moment it feels it will just take the form of a "me" doing the same things as always but with completely different motivations, I've seen through so many false ones so quickly that i feel a gestation period coming on, I've been impregnated and feel a need to slow down and take care of my body while what "is" is manifesting. To sit and do some knitting while it grows inside of me.

For this ape that's painting but the habits and reasons for art, embedded for decades from centuries old concepts, must continue to be purged so the new one can start to take form, no wait, so the emptiness can stay? That feels better, why get rid of one set of rules and replace them with another? I see this as just staying with mindfulness and awareness without distractions.

At this stage painting has become rote, it now reverts back to the exploration I was in the beginning, thoughtful consideration during process coupled with spontaneous jolts, all to avoid the old paradigm, a well worn rut, easily slipped into. An unknowing of where I'm headed, just a commitment to momentary flow, allowing senses to just "be" without judgement, labeling and confinement...

Fear is the paradox here, it has always been my engine, all of my painting to this point is laden with it, what will I create without fear? Anything? How will I approach the canvas, as warrior, saint or beggar? All of the above and none? My mind goes back to Damnedest "Art need not be created, teeth need not be flossed". Why anything then?

Because I, God, choose it to be so... any other "reason" is a lie. There's no longer a reason to strike through the mask once the mask is identified as self, simply keep the lamp on, illuminating always, this is enough. Keeping oil in the lamp... ah, now theres the trick for us virgins...

Each sock puppet has an intrinsic personality that has nothing to do with ego/Maya, we are born with it, accepting one's personality, consciousness's "little joke" is literally one of the most liberating moments in existence from my experience. That one movement of acceptance wipes out an army of fears, it may not be the "coup de grace" into the Hydra's heart but it is a mortal wound in the beast, disabling a slew of snapping heads with it's thrust.

Ha, Jed, instead of the eye roll, eviscerate my post, take the legs out, please. I want to see blood...

Dear Steve:

Thanks you for sharing, but no more posts here while working the Nav Series. Email me there if you want to talk further.

Thanks in advance.


Love ya, Jed.

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