You're right. The Jed McKenna I'm talking to is as fake as I am.
Holy sh*t, everything is great. Like everything is really really great. Even the messed up stuff.
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Right as I was writing that I totally went for a trip. I kept thinking: What am I guarding? I don't need to guard it any more.
Then I spent 30 minutes just laying on my couch mouth wide open, just woah, woah woah woah
My towel, it's as conscious as I am, it's just a drying thing. My liver is conscious too, it just does other stuff besides thinking. It livers.
I'm guarding the silence between notes in a beautiful song, I don't need to guard it, my ego is free to be an ego!!!!
MY EGO IS FREE TO BE AN EGO!!!! MY EGO IS FREE TO BE AN EGO!!!! It can live and die and everything is great!!! The space between thoughts gives thoughts, the space between people makes connections, the space in the room makes the room, the nothingness, the emptyness within makes me.
The hole in my heart is the ultimate love!!!!
Leaving this world makes this world amazing!