these things never translate into words very well but here goes......
it seems that my emotional bluster and trivial pursuit are there to stop me from seeing... that it SEEMS that- theres no one thinking the thoughts,
no one having the experience,
no one watching the show.
Is there any more for me to say than that?
Hmmmmmm. I want to say i am terrified by there SEEMiNG to be no one
and i am furious that i can never, ever KNOW for sure
I.E seems theres noone, seems there is someone, seems theres noone and it
is the puppet who is powerless to ever know for sure its a puppet
And the words....the terrified, the furious, the powerless, the NO ONE.....these words are not conveying much you know xxxx