It has to play itself out
There is a lot of anger in me, Yoga helps
I realize there is no such thing as free will. What is there then? I feel judged by other people, even if I am doing the judging myself (obviously -- not so much fun ** The movement seems to be away from such silliness into more depth, truth etc -- and an anger from playing small -- there is boredom but boredom is just a label I gave to something like denser energy. Oh wow, there just was the realization that words can come not close to any experience but they have to be used in as much detail as possible to even get the slightest insight into another's experience. Guess I will play more with words and details now!