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getitgotit

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #90 on: December 02, 2017, 02:03:43 am »
Forget free will, there is none. Still, would love to know some more. It feels like I know, Things just unfold as I felt they would go (did I?), still I do not have a say (do I), in the matter. Is there matter?  ;D :D Imho there is a certain draw to certain desires, or let me call them rather: attractions. There is an attraction to certain Things, towns, People .. but more of a 'this might be a plausible direction'. Endless possibilities but in the end only one way. Forgiving feels easy, still there are desires for certain experiences (or are These just Things that will lead me to how my life should unfold anyway?),  a wish for more solid surroundings (in the form of People). The I will call it 'thing' that is in the way of unfoldment is always the Feeling of 'I am not good enough', 'Why would I just be blessed in this way'? But I am. Guess when I truly let go of this obstructive thoughts, the ego will vanish into infinity, this is the fear... not the 'not good enough'. The 'not good enough' might be the root of this character. Funny how I answer my own questions  :-X
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Jed McKenna

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #91 on: December 02, 2017, 07:19:44 am »
Quite common really...

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getitgotit

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #92 on: December 03, 2017, 06:46:52 am »
Can you explain something to me? You say that after letting go of the I, you can create your own I and have fun with it. How is that supposed to go? I do not get it
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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #93 on: December 03, 2017, 06:53:39 am »
I know I know it myself. Why would I even ask ?  ::) :) :) :)
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Jed McKenna

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #94 on: December 04, 2017, 02:32:47 am »
All sense of ''I'', the person, that you who you think you are is a creation... why not make you own up with a little more awareness... create one that is more fun, more loving, more clever, more whatever... it's not real... not one single atom is real... so why not play with it.

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getitgotit

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #95 on: December 06, 2017, 09:28:28 am »
Dear Mr Mckenna/Jed

what would I do with all the free time if the mind does not have anything to worry about anymore?

yours sincerely
a friend
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Jed McKenna

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #96 on: December 06, 2017, 10:20:55 pm »
You would experience the peace that passeth all understanding. Your body would feel release from the life long chronic struggle to maintain the dream and your illusions of self control and importance. Words are meaningless here though... try it and then report back.

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getitgotit

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #97 on: December 10, 2017, 01:47:00 pm »
No one gives a ... about me at all. None. I have huge waves of pain coming, tears, attached to past Drama/Trauma. I am so angry.. Okay, dear Jed, if H/A means living a fulfilled life, what am I doing wrong?
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Jed McKenna

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #98 on: December 11, 2017, 01:32:38 am »
Everything... because you aren't seeing any of the benefits of H/A. And you might as well suck it up, there are only dream characters and they only like you when you can meet their need for attention.... which it appears you aren't. Think about it.

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getitgotit

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #99 on: December 11, 2017, 08:43:01 am »
- thank you, jed   :)

in the way of going H/A is my own need for acceptance. - huge fear of being 'found out' (do not even know of what exactly), and of being judged negatively accordingly. Fear of hurting others.. fear of losing others. The body weighs tons since it started with this paranoia (has not been there from the beginning),

But there is also an experience of an unusual sense of huge generosity towards others
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Jed McKenna

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #100 on: December 12, 2017, 02:35:04 am »
Sounds fine to me.

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #101 on: December 17, 2017, 04:32:22 am »
I know I am the guru... Still, there is a Need for outside help - from you. At least today. I am afraid 'others' judge me, what I've done, what I write here, cannot love me, abandon me, 'shame' me and thus never being happy-- 'Wrong' relationships end but there is a wish for a relationship with a special man (well, sure, this is blocking everything). How could I ever act this small(y)?
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Jed McKenna

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #102 on: December 17, 2017, 08:31:07 am »
To everything you say, I answer ''who care?'' which is not intended to sound cold, but to have you reflect upon.

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #103 on: December 18, 2017, 05:29:30 am »
Probably no one cares because nothing happens. I do not want to hurt people but I do not even know if I hurt them more with digging things up or hurt them more with not digging them up but someday they might show themselves to them and then they would be hurt. I want to be honest with my sister  :P
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Jed McKenna

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #104 on: December 18, 2017, 10:54:21 am »
Stop wanting to be honest with anyone. Wanting never did anything for anyone. Get honest with yourself first... then see what happens.

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