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getitgotit

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #255 on: August 10, 2018, 04:36:52 am »
 ???

Sure... the sting is totally optional  :o ???

I am afraid I might hurt others, still. With at some point being angry with someone, and then feeling like I am untrustworthy because I talked maybe with another person about them

 ???
To be honest, why?  ???

Jed McKenna

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #256 on: August 10, 2018, 05:44:56 am »
Sounds like a giant pile of horse manure... hey, just guru-speak.

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #257 on: August 10, 2018, 06:08:22 am »
Oh it is. It is it is it is

Maybe I am in disservice if I think that others cannot handle what life throws at them

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #258 on: August 10, 2018, 06:11:11 am »
I have this thing going where I am supposed to make no mistakes, be entirely trustworthy, never be a bad person  :o

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #259 on: August 11, 2018, 02:06:37 am »
In this dream, such things are impossible. When you are T/R they are all that are possible.

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #260 on: August 11, 2018, 06:27:35 am »
This one hit home

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #261 on: August 12, 2018, 05:42:55 am »
Bingo bango...  ::) ::) ::) :o :o :o :o :P

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #262 on: August 20, 2018, 03:57:11 am »
I am still carrying this guilt ridden persona  :P :D
Keeps me from enjoying my life.

Like I can hurt others, disappoint them
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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #263 on: August 20, 2018, 09:17:39 am »
Good luck on doing the impossible. They hurt themselves when their stories don't materialize as expected. You might be a participant but are certainly not the cause of their grief. If the don't own it, that too has nothing to do with you.

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #264 on: August 20, 2018, 10:54:28 am »
It seems like I am still searching although I have these moments of rest where there seems to be noone here. Then I go create something new or recreate something old, coming back to rest in the nothingness again. But still, something is seeking  8) seeking seeking... maybe this is just the movement into a new creation, new growth  :P

oh my, this is big  ???

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #265 on: August 20, 2018, 12:56:00 pm »
I am unworthy of living fully
unworthy
of letting go
unworthy of forgiving myself and others
unworthy unworthy unworthy, not enough, bla bla

I insulted someone I love who I want to feel happy
bla bla bla
I cannot forgive myself

I want to live the life I want
but I cannot
because I am not forgiven

and will never be

free

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #266 on: August 21, 2018, 02:36:17 am »
O.K.. but I know differently.

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #267 on: August 21, 2018, 04:14:23 am »
How so  ???

The sky is blue
The feet are cold
The bird is in the sky
The plane is in the sky
The children play
The lavender smells nicely
Bees fly around

I am unworthy.
Of.
Me.

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #268 on: August 21, 2018, 10:59:44 am »
All you speak of is in a dream... and I lovingly respond... so what?

Seriously, so what?

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Re: Enough of drama
« Reply #269 on: August 22, 2018, 01:33:27 am »
Following your last question

----- so what :P ::)

I 'I really need to trust myself and let that child-guilt-manner go for good'

take care and love you.

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