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Ferry

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Ferry
« on: September 08, 2014, 02:40:08 am »
Dear Jed,

Last mail I talked about the observer taking over from the character.
Also see, in my observation/experience, I can sit easily for hours doing nothing without feelings of restlessness, so totally at ease.

Question 1 : this emptiness/stillness is this what sometimes is called the Void, the un manifested part or the observer. Yes three BS words witch point to the same experience. Maybe also the word subject.

And then I see the movement, movement is thoughts, the universe, manifestation. What I write are the dialogs in my mind, so also movement, or objects.

Subjec/object total of my mind but experiences non the less. I see mind movement which tells 'me' you want to go beyond experience and I see movement that tells 'me' or already did the willingness for total surrender at any price.

I'm a little, just a little confused here. I am at ease with not paying attention to thoughts any more. But these thoughts and dialogs are so different from the ones I had. And I really know I don't have to write it because I can see things work out for them selves but I do it anyway. So here is question 2:

Is it possible I am getting guidance from inside, sat-guru or whatever?
Guidance to eventually go beyond experiences. Like I am smelling infinity.
Or just other thoughts to see and leave it alone.

With Love, Ferry
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Jed McKenna

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« Reply #1 on: September 08, 2014, 03:52:00 am »
Dear Ferry:

Welcome and good to see you, figuratively speaking.

I could ponder your questions and make up answer, but what for?

I suggest just let the questions go. You are there to experience (not a perfect word for this, but...) so just let it all be. If you where to do anything, just gently welcome all that comes and ask, what's next. Don't get stuck on anything, position or state, it's all passing anyways. Just a fart in the hurricane of eternity.

Love ya, Jed.
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« Reply #2 on: September 09, 2014, 01:53:33 am »
Dear Jed,

I had already forseen your reply so, no pounding needed.
I know what questions are and its not up to me to let them go I dont have the power.
These questions are already gone charakter cant hold on to questions long, no identifications not being stuck any more.
why did I asked them in the first place? I already said I know I dont have to because things work out just fine.
Its little ego attention that comes up so now and then. And its just fine, its seen and embraced.

With Love, Ferry
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« Reply #3 on: September 09, 2014, 02:47:13 am »
Hi Ferry:

Nothing wrong with a little  ego attention. Awareness is the key as you know. You have mine.

Love ya, Jed.
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« Reply #4 on: September 17, 2014, 01:54:36 am »
Dear Jed,

I have some farts coming up!

Awareness is the key, yes awareness opens everything up and reduces my ego to a joke.
I am aware of so many tricks it’s trying to play to get back its control.
It’s almost like its saying please identify with something please please please…..hahaha.
Seeing, knowing and understanding the false-self is seeing and understanding them in everyone dough I know there is nobody there.
Being just aware of the endless stream of thoughts initiate lots of bodily sensations, especially in the head.
Or maybe the other way around that the sensations enhances my awareness, who cares it’s happening.
And it never happened cos the brain is to slow!
Yes being aware all the time even in the most tempting situations like “family”.

The false-self (egos) and everything else are starting to get a little boring Jed!! Whoops another fart.

Well I am out of farts!

With Love,  Ferry
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First glimpse of truth!!
« Reply #5 on: September 18, 2014, 02:29:44 am »
Dear Jed,

Yesterday was boring, today its…….. well I will try to explain.
The last couple of days there where 4 words, 4 words planted in my brain.
“Awareness is the Key”

I used to do a lot just watching brain chatter with my ear plugs in to have as little interference as possible.
That’s how I got to know my false self and its trickery things.

Yesterday I came home late, watched some tv and went to bed.
At that moment the 4 words came to mind and I said lets be more and more and more aware, no ear plugs.
So I hear my partner snoring, I hear a train in the distance, I see my brain chatter, all kind of things.
First of all I recognized my true nature in this stillness, it’s what “I am”.

Then suddenly there was only awareness meaning my partner, the snoring, the train, my brain chatter, me disappeared.
Yes it just disappeared.

I became it all, it’s all me, there is only me, absolute nobody else.
I am ------> the aware space and everything in it.
It’s all nothing and everything.

Than the brain steps in trying to explain, boxing everything creating my partner, the snoring …………the universe.
Because of the excitement I could not sleep for hours.

You planted these 4 words in my brain but what really happened is that I put them there myself, how am….

For now it was just a glimpse, the mind has to calm down again and integrate the whole thing.

With Love, Ferry
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