INVISIBLE GURU FORUM

It's all pretend. You are pretending to have control, so pretend to have a tiller and pretend to let go. Once you get that this is all imagination, then it won't matter.

Love ya, Jed.

All answer lie within you. Yes, look into you, who you are and what you are. You might even inquire as to where you are.

There is only here and now, so that's not only the first place to look, it's the only place to look.

Love ya, Jed.

P.S. I was going to say drink less, however... I am enjoying a lovely Spanish red and don't want to be too self-righteous. Just be moderate in everything, including moderation.

i think i should use whatever helps at my level to inquire inside , no race to win just a guy finding out the truth and also what it means to be all that i am inside, of which i am  not very conscious of yet

Beliefs and emotions , if i destroy one the other also get destroyed(I think..)  primarily  the thing i have become expert in is destroying emotions( constricting feeling,fear) i don't need to make any study of my beliefs maybe i can walk that path but i don't believe or understand my beliefs  when i see them. if i just destroy all the constricting emotions they'll fall without even my notice though sometimes i see some chains of beliefs shattering and i am like whoa did i had those beliefs i never knew more like I always knew so i never questioned. Though mostly it's feelings bad feelings go out, good feelings comes in naturally am I heading towards unity conscious experiences or am i heading towards truth? what is truth anyways? Getting more and more awake and seeing that what you used to see is not there but suddenly there are alot of beauty richness in world na na more as a person what i am? what i am okay there is a body it's mine what does it mean to be mine there need to be a me for things to be mine, me me a center ,center hmm.Whenever i go searching for there is no me as i thought it to be like am just some transparent thing getting more and more transparent.Camels can't get through needles yes i need to be more and more meek I should let go of any expectation of any want of understanding humble humble down then i can only start making efficient efforts

P.S My Professor says i don't use punctuation and other grammatical stuff making my reports unreadable i gotta read some basics  though  while writing  all that stuff back there I don't look back at the words I type :p I am built up with emotions, not  intense, but still i am blinded.   

So back to fear and this  inner compulsion that is  making me search.Oh instead of searching for _____ i am attacking at the thing and motivations that is making me search? Hell yeah. I left that blank because it is blank right now gotta attack and the source emotions making me search but self inquiry is the thing that makes me look directly at all the these things so i will yeah look inside and instead of searching for truth(an illusion i am chasing) i'll look what already is, yeah, but more humble letting go of expectations and wants let go of wanting yeah let go let go  watch the compulsion.I mean what else there is to see than just this resistance inside i mean what other job do i have everything else is just what it is it don't need me to be what it is.I don't even want to look back at the things i write

This whatever persona i have it express it self and shows different sides with different kind of people depending on many factors like their age,sex , place setting

Okay thats one way to see the thoughts inside me and other way is to destroy the motivating feeling in my head with self-inquiry , more humble i gotta become more humble to use all these tools no expectations let go of expectation every victory will be a gift