Author Topic: First step Last step  (Read 6867 times)

adinfinitum

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Re: First step Last step
« Reply #15 on: November 25, 2016, 12:42:17 pm »
Yeah it's a shitty place to be.
I want smoothness. I want to feel like the first time when you drive a new car. Just the sensations. You don't think you just... you are not there. That's what I desire the most.
I could never answer that question. What do you want. But now I know.
I had many dreams recently showing me that. It's like people come into my dreams to teach me.
They show me repeatedly the subtle difference between thinking you're doing and the fact that it is already going without your help. I see it then don't, so it is shown again and again. This has to be carved once and for all...
I learned to swim in the exact same way. I was trying to float until a stupid contradictory exercise demonstrated that I already float.
I want to experience that the show is running by itself so that I can finally let go. Understand that I'm unnecessary.

I'm not proud of this post but I'll leave it there...
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