I get that recurrent dream every now and then. It always seems to close a cycle. I dream about failing college exam. Sometimes I miss to much lectures and worry about not knowing enough. This time I just failed. I was asking the teachers if they could give it to me now. It's been a while since I try to pass it, they could just give it to me. Then I taunted them a bit, accused them of not passing me just to get more money. I said: couldn't you just ask me the money then ? I was a bit sly and not really worried.
These dreams used to generate much anxiety upon waking, now I'm more relaxed. But this recurrent dream still seems to be important.
This kind of dream is a classic. College degree is often the gate through adulthood. I have passed the actual one for years now, it seems to be a deeper symbol.
I think my glib attitude in the dream is close to my current attitude. I suspect what comes after, so I delay the real jump, no longer afraid of failing but maybe about what's ahead.
I remember an episode of that dream where I was in a maze. I
**** it seeing that you could short-circuit it any time. I thought it was cheating but I was praised for finding the solution/non-solution. Most of people were still inside following directions to no avail. At that moment someone came and asked me if I really wanted to go for the next step because it wasn't an easy one.
I feel that deep down I know what to do, but I hide it from myself. I'll see how that goes.