I see all objects, the physical sensations, the thoughts, the sensation of being a mindbody. I see from 'outside', there is a buffer before the screen.
Before the screen there is no words, the void in which all this is born and dies.
I used to focus in the void to do remote viewing. Subtle images came and were used to build an image of a place afar that I wanted to see.
I'm not interested in special abilities anymore but it taught me many things. At first I though I was going in the void. Now I know that seeing is before 'there', directed at me and objects.
There is no content, no memories in that void but there is still a knowing, a presence. It's different from deep sleep let's say. That state of non-discriminating, simple original presence can be brought into the world, lucidity in the dream.
It's far from being continuous and it's still lucidity for a character. The sense of 'i' is still well rooted. The need to reaffirm 'I am' is unnecessary because it's self-evident but it still sprouts.
I know there is nothing I can do. This leaves me with a HUGE force pressing me against a glass wall. Is it wanting to be free? It's so strong it makes my body shake.
There is further I know. How... ? Keep on...