Dearest Jed,
At the moment I'm in London with Roxanne.
We're in a satsang intensive. (5 days).
1)
You are right, It's all me. I've never seen such arrogance, narcissicm and selfishness in one place.
I want freedom, I want to wake up, I want you to liberate me, I want to be rid of ego, I want to hug you, I want, I want, I want.........
Basically every question came down to 'I want something other than what is'. Of course it was me that disgusted me so much. The beauty is that also this IS.
2)
As long as there is you (the guru) there will be me (the student).
Love you
Gwen