Dear Jed,
(My) husband is a very charming and goodlooking man. He's tall, well build, bleugreenish eyes and black thick hair. He speaks with a low voice, is a little macho, ambitious, sensitive and visual. When I met him he was a womaniser. We're together for 20 years.
I realise there has been an underlying fear of loosing him. Last night I dreamed that he cheated on me. I woke up and stayed with that feeling a little bit. I also realise that I want to look good for him. I want to be someone for him (have to be, if not there is no relation)
There is still the fear of lack of love that is probably keeping me in prison. (cause the little me is still here)
Love*
Gwen