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mindlessbutter

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #150 on: June 19, 2017, 11:01:27 am »
Well... when something seems to be terribly terrible it dissolves within days, hours or minutes within this experience. Then it Pops up again but the time of discomfort is extremely bad and drains all the energy. When I feel on solid ground again - expecially in my relationship (the ex was not intended ;)) - there is a sense of relief. When in discomfort the I screams: give me comfort please! Like a drug ... at the same time something in me says there has to be something steady uneffected clear pure...  Can't I just let go of the discomfort? It is annoying.

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #151 on: June 19, 2017, 11:02:19 am »
I would not want to spend time with me. I am a Drama queen, boring and self-centred  :-X

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« Reply #152 on: June 19, 2017, 11:03:51 am »
But the fact that : nothing matters' gives me a huge wave of relief

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #153 on: June 20, 2017, 01:51:50 am »
Excellent!

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« Reply #154 on: June 27, 2017, 06:58:27 am »
The urge to (self-)Expression is there, although there is this still Holding back mechanism, and surrendering/expressing one Piece at a time, not all of it at once. Hiding much?

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« Reply #155 on: Today at 05:57:32 am »
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