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mindlessbutter

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #165 on: July 06, 2017, 05:59:32 am »
Why would I worry about what others think or do in regard to my own bs? They are not even real !!! I am biased with all the bs belief systems... and darn , I have no control , makes me angry but also free.. should get rid of what I do in order to not be happy ; happy is the way to go; maybe;

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #166 on: July 06, 2017, 06:10:38 am »
If you are H/A and happy, woohoo... good for you. If you are seeking T/R are happy, screw it, blast right through. Otherwise you get stuck. Happiness comes and goes, Truth is always there... or more accurately, here.

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #167 on: July 06, 2017, 06:39:54 am »
more satisfying than happiness to me is depth of experience anyway ; whatever that means

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #168 on: July 06, 2017, 07:22:40 am »
I don't have a clue...

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« Reply #169 on: July 09, 2017, 11:32:13 am »
Where do I look again? I do want to look and see but I seem to have forgotten how to. When I look back there is this judgement of all the previous Posts but the whole low self esteem issue I am not buying anymore  :o Where do I look again? Maybe passed that whiny small child within me

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #170 on: July 10, 2017, 06:10:50 am »
Maybe.... look and see..

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« Reply #171 on: July 10, 2017, 02:53:37 pm »
Am i really the only?

mindlessbutter

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« Reply #172 on: July 13, 2017, 09:05:45 am »
i am hiding so much ..I do NOT want to realize that nothing matters .. after All: I love my bf ... or my bf is loved? Life does it ?

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« Reply #173 on: July 15, 2017, 05:17:52 am »
You don't love you boyfriend, you love the stories about you boyfriend and how he makes you feel.

I probably love you B/F more than you think you do because I have no stories attached. I just am him... simple as heck and hard as heck to realize.

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« Reply #174 on: July 17, 2017, 10:54:42 am »
I am a fake. My relationship is a fake. My words are fake. Do I stay or do I go? I want to be honest, do I have the Courage? Where ain't I honest? I am sorry for this inner monologue of mine but recently got very confused with this mind of 'mine'. I see the tree, the birds, the flowers, the sky, and everyone tells me how life should be, I am a puppet on a string. For my relationship/man, for this Little taste of happiness but what for? Suffering until life's end? Noooo  >:( Am I even 'a woman'? My goodness. No, of Course not

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« Reply #175 on: July 19, 2017, 05:45:32 am »
It is the weirdest weirdest Thing to realize that I am all that is. I can compare this to being tipsy of wine, and not caring anymore about thoughts or People. Why would 'I' drink wine then? ;)  ::) High on my-self. All the time? It does not make sense. This does not make sense. Life feels like a creative interaction between worlds and there seem to be energy whirls where 'I' can enter and interact. Fly me to the moon? This is so weird. I am finding myself letting go of my projections on what People might Project onto me. If this all does not make sense, where to go? Is this really the life I want to live?

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« Reply #176 on: July 20, 2017, 02:11:11 am »
First off, you don't live any life and honesty is impossible, you can only get closer to honest and further away.

You are being dreamed and the purpose is purely entertainment... now, get out and enjoy the show.

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« Reply #177 on: July 23, 2017, 12:08:55 pm »
Guess I have to make the best of it  ::)

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« Reply #178 on: July 23, 2017, 12:33:54 pm »
As the tuk tuk drivers say when I ask ''how much?'', ''up to you''. No matter how much I pay it will be more than a local, but they need it much more than I do... so... it's up to you. Make the best of it or don't. But which ever you choose, remember it's DIY job.

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #179 on: July 26, 2017, 11:40:46 am »
Do you have any tips on how to treat the body, I do not want to take any medication in order to stay 'in order'. Still, this takes a lot of energy apparantly, I feel nauseous and dizzy, without orientation. If this is what it is there needs to be Integration done, otherwise body will fall apart. Thank you in advance very much