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Jed McKenna

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #30 on: May 05, 2017, 02:04:45 am »
In a world where time is only an illusion, patience is the key.

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #31 on: May 06, 2017, 11:57:17 am »
Reality seems sometimes so 'in your face', it is so obviously 3D and I do not know how to see this all as just an Illusion. But I guess the mind cannot explain or conceive anything other than its death? I feel like there is something that wants to break free (from your lies, your so self satisfied). I am angry at my ego, but even more angry and also avoding other People who seem to be less in the flow than I am if that makes sense. I get Nausea when in the presence of certain People. Sometimes even myself. Thanks! <3

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #32 on: May 06, 2017, 12:00:08 pm »
Rather than love, fame, whatever, give me truth. I say! Now... but later I might not want that so much.

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #33 on: May 07, 2017, 05:13:29 am »
Wanting to realize your True Nature is something you never regret... well, along the journey you might, (this is why I am so big on H/A)... but at the end of it  (there is no end, but that's the best I can come up with) you will want for nothing. Literally, figuratively and every other way... imaginable or unimaginable.

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #34 on: May 07, 2017, 06:06:59 am »
Hmmm... Or as the Bavarian would say: ja mai ...I don't know !

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #35 on: May 07, 2017, 06:11:45 am »
I could do anything right now ...I could travel , sit in a pub in Dublin , walk towards the jakobsweg or whatever , but why this?

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #36 on: May 07, 2017, 06:12:12 am »
Another brick in the wall ...

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #37 on: May 08, 2017, 03:04:49 am »
You are not the brick, you are the wall. ALL WALLS, and Mexico if gonna pay!

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #38 on: May 08, 2017, 04:15:04 am »
Sometimes there are glimpses of 'wow, oh my God, there is ... nothing. It is not definable. Oh my God... swoooosh...........' and then my mind/I come in and say: 'No no no no, I'd rather have all the suffering in the world, all the pain, I do not care! Everything is better but losing control! I will stick to my ego, I am my ego, awesome. I am free and at the same time I can stick to my ego'. Funny game! Or not, help!

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« Reply #39 on: May 08, 2017, 04:20:58 am »
What do you mean with 'Mexico if you gonna pay?'

I do not want to leave but I am not. I want to cry, scream, laugh, and I see that all people are hiding. At least I believe I do. Everyone is hiding, this is a weird place  ??? 8) >:( >:( >:(

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #40 on: May 08, 2017, 04:21:30 am »
I am stupid, I know nothing

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #41 on: May 08, 2017, 04:25:20 am »
Okay... the question is what do I want. In terms of truth but also in terms of everything. Act, dance, sing, do sports ... what holds me back from anything? Why do I believe that what everyone wants is what I want? Fear!

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #42 on: May 08, 2017, 04:26:33 am »
Fear fear fear fear fear fear fear, damnit. This fear fear fear, is the blockage and entrance to reality, maybe. Dont want to go there

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #43 on: May 08, 2017, 04:26:58 am »
I am angry!

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #44 on: May 08, 2017, 04:44:14 am »
Everyone is in Trance