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mindlessbutter

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Have been here before
« on: September 18, 2016, 10:14:43 am »
Hey Jed,

I did not want to come back here, oh no. But I am so curious! It feels right. And it feels too true. Oh no. What should I do?

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take care, big hug, how are you?

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #1 on: September 18, 2016, 10:26:40 am »
I am trying to write some truth here. A lot of the fears we have are from fitting into standards from which we do not want to escape because if we would we would realise that we are indeed nothing? If we would remove ourselves from the standards of society, of made up constructs we would not have a reference point and we would be in open space?

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #2 on: September 18, 2016, 12:32:46 pm »
Please speak only in the first person... as a service to yourself and others who might read your post.

This is, in my hallucination, quite important. If you don't own your opinions and thoughts, who does?

Love ya, Jed.

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #3 on: September 19, 2016, 05:04:54 am »
 I am sorry.  I feel restricted by myself.which is so familiar to me but I am tired of old habits and thoughts.  I would like to achieve HA.I would appreciate it if you could help me with this

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #4 on: September 19, 2016, 09:32:40 am »
I might be a long process for you. Tell me why you want H/A. What do you think it will give you?

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #5 on: September 19, 2016, 10:02:31 am »
Why do you think it would be?

More freedom.

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #6 on: September 19, 2016, 10:46:59 am »
What exactly is keeping you from being free in this very moment.

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mindlessbutter

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #7 on: September 19, 2016, 01:54:18 pm »
I might lose my boyfriend. I might lose my place at university. I might lose my friends. I might lose my beauty. Pretty attached hm?

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #8 on: September 19, 2016, 02:00:27 pm »
You know what? I might lose it but I probably will not lose it. H/A is deciding for yourself, and that feels like freedom to me

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #9 on: September 19, 2016, 10:39:56 pm »
I'm pretty sure you are going  to end up an old, wrinkled crone. Then what? How will you feel then about your life, about what you have done, pursued, etc.?

But wait, there is a glitch, you might die in five minutes, that what?

Love ya, Jed.

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #10 on: September 20, 2016, 02:11:26 am »
I might die in 5 minutes, I am really good in not thinking about that...  ::)

Then I would still drink my coffee now, look outside the window, see the sunshine and hope there will be an afterlife. You will tell me that there is none but I still want to believe what I believe. I want H/A because I am afraid of T/R. I am afraid that I might not exist but I want to. Thank you

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #11 on: September 20, 2016, 02:13:00 am »
Maybe this is not the right forum for me  ::)

Sure I will end up wrinkled... Audrey Hepburn was beautiful when wrinkled.

If I would die in 5 minutes I would still be here where my man is

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #12 on: September 20, 2016, 02:15:14 am »
I saw a video by this guy named Benjamin Smythe who said: if it does not matter that we show off, if it is all nonsensical vanity, we might just all show off and have fun with it

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #13 on: September 20, 2016, 02:22:22 am »
I am really afraid of not following anything. It feels like a big openness of nothing and nothing to hold on to

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Re: Have been here before
« Reply #14 on: September 20, 2016, 04:22:03 am »
...that pretty much  describes it.

Love ya, Jed