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abrakamowse

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I am That
« on: March 24, 2016, 10:16:31 am »
Hello Jed and everyone on the forum,


Jed, don't you want to do a comic about your experiences? hehehe...

I am an illustrator and comic artist, in fact I am more a graphic designer trying to move to making comics and illustrations.

And I was all my life disappointed because I didn't follow my dreams, I thought that it was going to be difficult to live doing my illustrations so I took the "safer" way that it was becoming a graphic designer.
Is not that I don't like graphic design, It's my passion too but making comics, illustrations, etc is really a dream for me. I am working on that, and I read one of your books, in fact I am actually reading it
and I really like the honesty you have on what you think about life and what you say to others about your experiences.

I really liked a lot when you said that everyone is your master or teacher, that you learn from everyone. That's is great. I think so too.

And about my spiritual life, it was a bit convoluted. I always was curious about Zen, and Buddhist meditation, Yoga, etc. I read a lot of books as a teen.
I was having a small graphic design studio in my native country, that is Uruguay.  But things were not working well, there was a big recession so I took a chance and
I moved to New Jersey and I am working in New York. I came with my wife and now we have a 9 year old daughter.

So, I was very disappointed about my country because I always thought that people there think like an small village, they don't think big. But, in fact now I realize that it was me that wasn't thinking big.
And I was here thinking only about working, and I was in my delusional thinking about getting a high paying job, etc etc... hehehehe.... and things didn't go the way I expected, it was not bad, but not as good as I expected.

And I got very depressed and I ended in the hospital in a psychotic episode. The stress at work, everything took me to that point, I like a lot the teaching of Jesus, so I went to a Church and I fried my brain hehehe...


At that point I did a full circle and I came back to the Buddhist teachings, I am meditating again and I feel much better. And really I learned two things that I needed to learn when I was at the Christian Church,
even when the cost was to go to a psychiatric hospital.

One, is that we have not free will. I didn't understand that part from the Bible, but now I think everything makes more sense. And it is not only from the Bible, I have investigated what science says about it and I found
that there were some scientific experiments that could arrive to the conclusion that there's not free will.

The second one was to make me so humble about the power of God, Nature, Universe, etc... whatever people want to call him. That this disposition opened my mind to a epiphany.

I was going to work on the subway and suddenly, I began to feel like filled with love. I loved everyone in the train, I can't explain with words what I feel.
The only thing I can say is that I thought "Oh, that's the way that God want us to love". It was something so deep and pure that I never experienced in my life.

Then I got off the train and I took another one, I take three trains to go to work hehehe... and when I was in the other train I begin to see like lights coming out from everybody.

It was like lights but the were like connecting dots between everyone, like if everyone where connected and I felt that everything I did was affecting everyone because we were all one.
I didn't think that at that moment, but now I understand that was what happened.

Then I saw my hand, and everything looked more real. My hand and arm had like these lights, like if my blood were done of light running through my arm, it was pretty crazy.
The thing I remember thinking was "that's what Jesus said that we will have rivers of living water running through us". Because that's how it looked like. Like if there was water, and
that water was so clear that it shined through my skin. And I also remember thinking "this is real life, I was dead and now I am alive". Everything looked to me more real than real life.

I saw the horizon, I was getting off the train and it was on a platform on a 2nd or 3rd floor. That's were I got off to go to work. I could see the buildings, everything from a high place.
And I looked everything and it seemed like the earth was breathing, like if it was a living thing. I saw the sky and there was like a swirl in the clouds. And I felt like that was God, or the Universe, or the Absolute, or the laws of nature, whatever people like to "label" him.

And I really felt overwhelmed, like if I was going to fall over my knees and say, Ok... I give up. You win. Hehehehe... it was pretty crazy but beautiful.

And I had some more experiences after that, one more I remember it was that when I wake up I didn't have identity. I didn't know who I was for a moment, before waking up. But I will tell about that in a future post.

Thanks again for opening this forum!


Daniel
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Re: Hello, new to the forum
« Reply #1 on: March 24, 2016, 11:11:17 am »
Dear Daniel;

Welcome to the forum, now for the **** slap. Please cut your blah blah down to 200 words or less. It's in your interest and mine. Keep in mind that you are not that important and what you have to say is only of interest to yourself.

Having said that, if you have a specific question, I may be able to assist or point.

Love ya, Jed.


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Re: Hello, new to the forum
« Reply #2 on: March 24, 2016, 11:20:04 am »
No problem Jed, I got it.

I know I am not important, is that I just tried to make it short but I didn't know how to do it. Believe that I made it short, I had more stuff but I am not going to fill the forum with that, promised.

I got your message, thanks. I know sometimes I go around the bushes.


My question will be if that kind of experiences are expected when someone is looking for enlightenment or if it was something that wasn't real, only something made by my mind.
I am a bit confused about what's the next step, I was thinking in going to a buddhist center in New York to make meditation with someone who had the experience before.


I apologize for the long post!


Daniel

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Re: Hello, new to the forum
« Reply #3 on: March 24, 2016, 11:21:32 pm »
Hi Daniel:

Please express the experience you are talking about as concisely as possible. I didn't read you first post as I am simple too busy and assert come controls in the interest of assisting as many students as possible.

Thanks in advance.

Love ya, Jed.

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« Reply #4 on: March 24, 2016, 11:35:01 pm »
Thanks Jed again, this was my experience.

I was going to work, I was on a subway. And suddenly I was filled with love. I know it sounds corny but that was what happened. I loved everyone on the train, it was weird.
I remember me thinking "wow, that's the way God want us to love" because it was like an spontaneous love, like without reason just love.

Then I get off that train and I take another one, the love feeling was vanishing slowly. But when I was on the other train, I was almost arriving to my station and I saw my hands an my arm and I felt like more alive. I remember that I thought "I was dead, and now I am alive". It was like a reality more real than what I am perceiving now, it was everything like sharper, I don't know how to define it. I got off the train, and the platform of the station was like high, like a second or third floor. And I saw the city from the top, but I perceived like everything was breathing and everything was alive, and in the sky the clouds were like swirling in a powerful way. It gave me the sensation that it was God, but that was what I thought. The thing is that everything was alive.


Thanks Jed for reading and responding to my questions!
Much appreciated!

Daniel

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« Reply #5 on: March 24, 2016, 11:59:38 pm »
Thanks Daniel:

Your experience was just that, and experience. It's pretty difficult to grasp, but actual T/R is not an experience. It my be better described as a beingness, but that not it because no words actually describe it.

Nothing wrong with having that experience, other than the trap of trying to repeat it. Some folks spend the rest of their live trying to repeat it. Don't get caught in that. To any experience that arises (ANY!) just be grateful, say thank you, and the then ''next''.

I trust that helps a little.

Love ya, Jed.

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Re: Hello, new to the forum
« Reply #6 on: March 25, 2016, 12:09:39 am »
Thank you very much Jed, you were really helpful.

I'm trying to focus on enlightenment and I am really thankful for the experience.



Thanks for your time!

Daniel

P.S.: I am really thinking into doing a comic about enlightenment, do you mind to read something if I send you an script? It's Ok if you don't have time or you can't do it. But I just had to give it a try hehehe.... Thanks again!!!

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Re: Hello, new to the forum
« Reply #7 on: March 25, 2016, 02:05:25 am »
It never hurts to ask, but the reality is I am very busy with the forum and the Nav Series. No can do for you.

Love ya, Jed

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Re: Hello, new to the forum
« Reply #8 on: March 25, 2016, 10:12:17 am »
It's Ok, I understand. Thanks anyway.

When I have it done I'll send you a copy.
 :)


Thanks again!

Daniel

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Re: Hello, new to the forum
« Reply #9 on: March 25, 2016, 08:01:16 pm »
Best wishes to you...

Love ya, Jed.

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Re: Hello, new to the forum
« Reply #10 on: March 30, 2016, 09:25:45 am »
Jed, I enjoy your books.

Thanks!


Love ya too.

Daniel

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« Reply #11 on: March 31, 2016, 01:38:22 am »
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« Reply #12 on: March 31, 2016, 05:42:25 pm »
 :P

Jed, thanks in advance for your responses. I know it takes you time and you really are awesome helping us to get a better understanding.

Today I found a video of Mooji, where he was talking about the seer being perceived. There's a witness who is seeing all that's happening.
I thought the seer was our conciousness, but now that I found that video, where Mooji is saying that the seer can be seen, I think he's right.
So there must be something more that perceives the seer or witness.

As I said, I think he's right, but I would like to know your opinion. He said that the response to that can come only from a revelation, not by reasoning or logic.

Thanks again.

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« Reply #13 on: March 31, 2016, 11:30:18 pm »
In my experience there is no seer and nothing is ever seen. However, seeing is occurring almost all the time. Subtle, but important distinction.

I agree with Mooji's last statement...that this all can only come from a revelation, not by reasoning or logic.

So, if you think your have figured it out, throw it out. That ain't ''it''.

Love ya, Jed.

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« Reply #14 on: April 01, 2016, 07:00:06 pm »
I will continue with strong determination meditation,  mindful meditation and self inquiry, any suggestion Jed?  I feel I am missing something.