Let me know how it goes.
Love ya, Jed.
Ok Jed, I was trying to stay totally quiet in the middle of the farm and it's crazy difficult. But I am still trying. The first time I could not do it. My mind was wandering, I got anxious of being so quiet. I feel like I went backwards, because some time ago I used to do zazen two hours straight, and now I couldn't be sitting 15 minutes. Not good... I need to work on that.
I remember once when I told you that I could see that we are not the doers. I felt that I was walking without walking, etc...
So I told you that "I" saw "that".
And you asked me "what did you see? the void?" (or something like that).
And I really didn't see a void, or the world falling down into pieces as you say in your book.
I realized that all those experiences happen in awareness, and if "I" am looking for an experience to know that there's enlightenment, that's a trap.
I know that I am enlightened but without any experience, because enlightenment doesn't happen to "me".
I am not looking for any experience at the moment, but I will continue meditating. I just wanted to share it with you because I like the way you "teach" what is not "teachable"...
And like UG krishnamurti said, I know I am just a dog barking.
:-)
Thanks Jed for your patiente reading all our "stories".