O.K., excellent.. now start at the beginning, sit.. I assume you can do that, but can you sit still, very, very still for a few hours at a time... maybe...
Next, silence your mind while you are sitting very, very still.
Be still and be silent, and know you are God. What could be simpler?
I wish you luck, but I'm not going to bet the farm on you.
Love ya, Jed.