Thanks Jed,
Yes - I have no idea if Syria even exists... and I've never seen the whale..
I'm experiencing chaos (random thoughts running in different directions - I have no better way to describe it). I am addicted to online pornography and decided to stop it, and it's my 17th day without it and struggling with so-called "urges" - persistent flashes of erotic scenes from random videos I've seen over the years. Even while I write it I see those images in the background...
Can't see beyond that. The closest description of my overall state would be "voluntary slave".
And at this very second I feel like crying and screaming. My heart weights two tonnes