I'm enjoying confusion and pain and crazy heartbeat during slight panic attacks. Once I am with the heart it goes away. Can't stay with it for long uninterupted but I feel like it's progressively longer.
Reading (or rather painfuly studying) Maharaj "I Am That"... Sometimes feel like I wanna obliterate him, sometimes feel like I want to hug him... When he gets on love, harmony and peace and balanced life I want to choke the guy.... When he talks about "I've eaten the world and don't have to think about it anymore" I can relate and feel gratitude....
I'm thinking... how to best explain the difference between psychoanalisis and spiritual autolysis? Sometimes I feel it, sometimes I don't.....