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I need a knife
Kendred:
I've been on the edge of "death" for a few years now. I'm really irritated I've let this grind on for too long. Its as though I've lost my knife n can't seem to finally cut my own head off. All Is smoke but this game I seem trapped in. My real question is how do I stop deluding myself because I've made a search out of this whole thing. Ahh the paradox. Perhaps the "realness" of the search is what I hold onto.
Hope that makes sense, Thanks for the forum
Jed McKenna:
Hi there:
So, you want a knife.... ooohhh....ah... what for?
Love ya, Jed.
Kendred:
The fact that I can't write an answer without immediately invalidating for myself what i just said gets to the heart of the absurdity. All I can respond with is more metaphoric BS. More dream crap. There is No need and no point to me talking, Thanks.
Jed McKenna:
Sounds like you are getting ''it''. Good, now be gentle on your self.
Love ya, Jed.
Kendred:
Wow....realizing that my thoughts run themselves In these sorts of balls of energy is some what horrifying. I can see now why I would rather stay in pain than let go, see that it just is what it is, n fall back into nothingness. So Seductive identification and engagement is. I imagine it as putting your face into a ball of emotional water, like that part from harry potter. Like a sort of energy mask you imagine life through. My oh my.
Thanks!
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