An insidious doubt has sprung up, after I read about your relationship with Adler's how to read a book. Its quiet, but creeping into my awareness.
In this layer I realise that all I have learned up until now was not only a waste of time, but utterly useless.
Right now I'm listening to Alan Watts' lectures. I have 100 of them. They produce amazing states in me, and they are quite liberating. I find a unconstrained joy that comes from him, but its most likely because in contrast to my Christian upbringing Zen is a form of liberation these poor sods cannot experience.
What came resulted was nearly an automatic response. I took Alan's warning seriously this time around. What he is saying is a huge disservice to me, and is likely going to distort my understanding of what I'm seeking.
What this boils down to is that I am deferring my own authority, and this also afflicts everybody around me. Which means I lose everyone, and this is the cost - which I cannot even pay, since these people do not belong to me.
* I am hopelessly ignorant concerning myself, my motives, and interests. I cannot do SA, yet here I am, being the little rebellious bastard.
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