INVISIBLE GURU FORUM

Really Jed. So theres nothing to do, say, know...I could go on...what now? nothing..always has been always will be. nothing nothing nothing...yet everything..what a joke..jokes on no one...yet 'i' can't seem to let go of searching. there is nothing to know! jokes on you buddy. i sit here in awe..im not sure how i feel to be honest...i have some cob webs to clear out..everything is starting to center itself...

Hey Jed,

You say the point is to wake up, not earn an PHD in waking up. Let's say one does earn a PHD in waking up. He's knows everything there is to know, yet nothing. He stands at the gate less gate. What then? Step on over to where he's always been? Or turn back? If he steps over, he's loses everything and gains nothing. If he turns back, what would that make him? Nothing of course. Yet, you can't unsee what has been seen. I don't know if I can jump Jed. The edge is near, if that. Idk what to do. I look over the edge to only be teased by a gentle breeze that pushes me. Why not just jump dammit! What's there to be scared of? Nothing. What's there to lose? Everything!! What to do. What to do.  Just gotta get this off my chest. Thanks for listening. Please be sharp with your response, if any. I know I didn't really ask a question.

woah Jed didn't realize how many rants you have. its own little section too?? neat. alrighty lets see what kind of **** you have to say 

where do I even start? lately experiencing the up and downs have been intense. i'll feel like jesus walking on water one day where I feel I can conquer the world and feel depressed as s h i t the next day feeling sorry for myself tucked in my bed. i just don't know. i can barley find motivation to get motivated to do anything. the only thing that keeps me going is fear; i don't know what i want to do in this life. i don't know how i want to act in this life. i don't know if i don't know..wow that sounds kinda poetic...maybe i don't know. nowadays its like everything happens all by itself. thinking happens where I just watch it. its kind of like what is being shown on tv is being seen for what it is whereas before I had no idea I was sitting so close to the damn tv screen, where I would end up absorbing everything that happened on the screen. anyways, thanks for listening. thoughts are always welcome of course. Gracias Jed.