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bliss22_23

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« on: January 27, 2016, 08:42:09 pm »
Hello guys,

Last night, it was clicking. I feel burdened that who I am is just a persona. I do not know how to act now. I feel amused, and I think now that everything is possible. I do not know. I recognize it by being aware that it is just me, the mechanical body and the cultural body.

This is my first time here.

I realized that I might come to the enlightenment, but then, I might not. In the end, I will be dead. So does it matter? Maybe, or maybe.

I am still adjusting with this.

But this is a new way of living.

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Jed McKenna

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« Reply #1 on: January 27, 2016, 09:42:52 pm »
Doesn't sound like a problem to me, just enjoy yourself.

Write back anytime you feel inclined... reclined, declined, disinclined, anticlined, monocline, thermoclined, or any such similar experiences... but watch out for doxyclined.

Love ya, Jed.

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« Reply #2 on: January 28, 2016, 04:34:07 am »
Hello Jed,

I know that life has no meaning. But my biological body is kicking. Let's say I feel fear, though logically, the fear is not existing.

So to conquer that fear, do I need to face it? Well, I want to overcome it, but I accept that overcoming it is futile. But still, it is my desire to conquer that fear.

E.g. I fear that I lose my job, but I know in the end, it is meaningless. How do I conquer that fear?

Cheers!
Sam

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« Reply #3 on: January 28, 2016, 05:17:52 am »
Find out who/what has this fear.

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« Reply #4 on: February 03, 2016, 04:35:32 am »
Hello Jed,

I feel inclined to write again. Haha.

Anyways, you said to find out what/who has this fear. You know what I did? I started reading philosophy.

You can bet that the topic is so hard, that I lost my hope to find what/who this fear. I asked that question again, and again, and again. I can't find anything. What it did to me is to be skeptic of anything I know, even my existence.

I do not know how to act now, what to achieve. Should I resign my myself and be contented in life or follow things(passion) that is meaningless?

But I always keep saying to myself.

It does not matter.

Hope you can help,
Sam


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« Reply #5 on: February 03, 2016, 05:04:30 am »
Hi Sam:

Ask again and again and just remain with what comes up, and then ask again.

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« Reply #6 on: March 10, 2016, 10:26:47 pm »
Hello Jed,

I just want to know your thoughts in my reflection.

Last night I was drinking with my friends and I am discussing about surpassing our emotions. They realized that life without emotion is kind of robotic, that I am taking the meaning of their lives. I am taking love, happiness and even sadness in their lives, that made them angry with me.

Earlier this day, I thought to myself, what is next in line without emotion. And I realized that I can be cold, hard, rational man, without regard with emotion, just pure facts. And then I realized that I am more than my "thinking" self.

Now, I am still reducing this thinking self and I realize that all I have is consciousness. And after consciousness is nothing.

That scares me. I know I will die, but am I just really my consciousness?

Please direct me in the right direction.

Thank you!
Sam


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« Reply #7 on: March 10, 2016, 11:12:14 pm »
Hi Sam:

You can't take a wrong direction. Pursue what is in front of you, that is sufficient.

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« Reply #8 on: March 16, 2016, 01:10:09 am »
Hi Sam:

You can't take a wrong direction. Pursue what is in front of you, that is sufficient.

Love ya, Jed.

Hello Jed,

I am afraid with what is front of me. I do not know what I want now. I'm afraid to see what's the next step.

Do I need to be sure of something to go on? Or do I take a leap of faith and let the chips fall where they may?

EDIT: Truth is scary I realized, I guess it will be painful and I am really scared. But I think it is better facing this fear than not knowing what is real.

Cheers! 
Sam
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« Reply #9 on: March 16, 2016, 03:17:44 am »
Just leap!

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« Reply #10 on: March 16, 2016, 09:31:05 pm »
Hello Jed,

I am thinking about my universe or dream state. Now, people has their own universes too, right?

My question Jed is this, are the people in my dream state real? Even enlightened people like you? Are you real?

Somehow, I answered my question. If I am dreaming, then it follows that people are not real. Even enlightened ones.

Just needing a solid ground to step into.

Thanks Jed,
Sam

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« Reply #11 on: March 16, 2016, 10:25:57 pm »
You know all you need to know and are stepping in quicksand.... bye.. bye...

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« Reply #12 on: March 20, 2016, 09:50:12 pm »
Hello Jed,

I think I am stuck.

I know that I have nothing. That I can't trust my senses and in turn I have nothing left, not even myself. Oh well, I sometimes oscillate between appreciating this drama/game and accepting this life as nothing/illusion.

I guess I just need to ask again what is true; and keep at it. And I know that the world or whatever has a way of giving what I need at the proper time.

Just sharing Jed.

Cheers!
Sam
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« Reply #13 on: March 21, 2016, 12:50:45 am »
Thanks Sam, now further...

Love ya, Jed

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« Reply #14 on: March 22, 2016, 11:55:39 pm »
Hello teacher  ;D,

I have nothing (even "I" is nothing). And because of this, I have and am is everything.

I am still hacking the dirt (family is a big one) that is in me, and it is an ouch, really. But after some hacking, I lose some of it. And by losing it, I gain it infinitely.

I am trying to slow down now and just relax. Then further. What a wonderful world.

Hope to have some beer with you in the future,
Sam