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« Reply #30 on: February 24, 2018, 11:10:05 am »
Ps: starting to love my dreamcharacter.... It is a great feeling!!!!! :D

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« Reply #31 on: February 24, 2018, 11:33:25 am »
Got it....

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« Reply #32 on: February 24, 2018, 11:43:10 am »
There is a question on the previous page...

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« Reply #33 on: February 24, 2018, 11:55:59 pm »
O.K. What to do with it, relax, it will pass in a few decades... you just need to decide what is really important to you and then do it.

Love ya, Jed.

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« Reply #34 on: February 25, 2018, 01:08:40 am »
O.k. I understand.

Focus. Further...

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« Reply #35 on: February 27, 2018, 06:40:06 am »
 ::) ::) :P :P ;) ;)

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« Reply #36 on: February 27, 2018, 12:51:35 pm »
What the hell did I get myself into...  ::) ;D ;) ;)

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« Reply #37 on: February 27, 2018, 02:05:10 pm »
 I don't know is it just a temporary thing, but I feel great.

Feel kind of crazy too. Motivated to go on, explore.

I plan to go on easy on myself, doing it little by little, every day a little chunk. Reading your books, the forum. Maybe even learning a little about philosophy (just for the fun of it; I really love it. Appreciate it like a beautiful artwork), but filtering out the b.s. parts. I think I can detect it a little easier now. I think I can afford to not go right through but buy some time with this... I am continuing percieving the world as a drama and loving it. I now feel like it is really not important to me how will my earhly affairs go by (I mean, what will I "achieve" in a human world, will I have a baby and so on),...don't know is it just the excitment for the adventure, will I feel bad afterwards? I don't seem to care at this point.

This not opening up to others was a little bit scary at first (a really new thing for me) but seems I'm getting a hang of it. Actually I rely much more on myself now (cause this is the only company that is left for me, +this forum), so I think that's the reason I started to love myself more. Actually a pretty coureagous/crazy ego I have here and I am grateful for that.

Fun times
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« Reply #38 on: February 28, 2018, 05:02:50 am »
Strangely.. it takes a strong ego to see through an ego...

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« Reply #39 on: March 02, 2018, 03:57:33 am »
Although "reality" isn't real, it seems pretty real to the dreamcharacter...

The thing is, that the dreamcharacter itself is not real, but imagined. And so it's reality is imagination too. Imagination within the imagination...

And dreamcharacter creates stories around its imagined reality. Actually it's stories create the imagined reality. And the source of stories are in its upbringing,...what it learned from parents, peers, teachers, the society. How it should behave, what it should do, what it IS, that it exists at the first place...no body questions that cause everybody has that kind of upbringing too...

And so the dreamcharacter imagines that all this is true, and acts upon it. It's stories creates it's reality.

Change the stories, change the reality.

Erase the stories, erase the reality  ??? :-X  :D

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« Reply #40 on: March 03, 2018, 04:38:09 am »
See through all he stories and you will see through this appearance of a world and then that of the universe...

Disappearance.... at it's finest.

Love ya, Jed.
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« Reply #41 on: March 03, 2018, 07:41:16 am »
My dreamworld consisted of so much obligations. Responsibilities. Guilt. Shame. I was always „in progress“, getting better, never good enough as I was. Demanded SO MUCH from myself. Lived by the rule: If I am not perfect, I am not good enough. Had to had perfect grades to see myself as smart. Had to look great to see myself as pretty. Of course, never was it good enough. Never. Never was a good friend to myself. Actually I was my own enemy. I can see it just now...from the distance. When someone is fully imersed in it, it isn't so obvious... actually one can not see it fully imersed.

This disilussionment, to me, is like a getaway from all that b.s. Like a rescue rope, really. All of that was untrue, imagined. Never existed; I created it, thought it into existence. All that character was a dream...and now, I can awake within the dream, become aware of it's works, and make them not work on me anymore!!!
 
As you said it in the first book.... (know that quotes are not allowed but just this once)
Row, row, row your boat
Gently by the stream
Merily, merily, merily, merily,
Life is but a dream.  :)

Thank you for sharing all of it with us, Jed. Will be eternaly grateful to You.
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And of course, further!
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« Reply #42 on: March 04, 2018, 05:26:48 am »
Feel like a massive burden has been lifted from my back. From my heart!

Like I was carrying such a heavy weight with myself, everywhere I went it followed me...it was me!!! I was my own weight!

I created the drama I lived in. I was pumping the energy into it!!!

Now I feel...like I can relax. At least! Enjoy in my own body. Relax the muscles. Breathe. Listen....

Don't have to be ANYHOW. Just beeee.........

Oh my, that is so beautiful................
Just listen....
Just feel...
Just be....

I think I will stay on this part for a little while...to appreciate it fully and completely. To get used to living in this way for a little while before continuing ahead... To test it a little bit in heavy times too...

I am so happy

Thank you Jed <3

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« Reply #43 on: March 06, 2018, 03:36:38 am »
Excellent plan.. enjoy the scenery.

Love ya, Jed.

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« Reply #44 on: March 09, 2018, 05:09:03 pm »
Ok, so... what I figured:

This is not called a process without a reason. It will take some time, that is like in its definition. You can't figure it out all by once, you have to slice it through, little by little, now I can see that for a fact.

What happened. Challanges happened for my good mood and "oh the world is so nice I love everybody, this is just a glorious magnificent big game". Unconfortable feelings came when I had to deal with one person, my former very good friend, that I cold out the relationship with. I obviously didn't process that one, so I had a reaction on her today that was unconfortable; I felt **** up after she went home. I thought - Ok, I have to go through it now, I'll do S/A on it, to see what is really bothering me there. And so it came, I found the toxic thoughts and beliefs, that were completely MINE (she was not guilty for my uncomfortableness), that made me feel that way. Ok, so, 1 less - but I understood, I will have to do this **** for every other situation that make me feel unwell, that will be **** exhausting and not so much fun. But oh well!!!! I will do it still.

Continuing with my S/A.
Love to my mentor