Tonight I had a curious dream.
I was dreaming that I was driving my car and listening to your tracks. That is my driving exp. for the last 3 months so no wonder it came up in a dream, too. But what was curious; it was on the part where You were saying something like this (it is not an actual quote but sth along these lines): "When you started reading, you were probably someone who would suffer if they lose their arm. Someone who is in the process would lose it deliberately and WOULDN'T EVEN CARE ABOUT IT". I heard that and rewinded the track to hear it again. And then again. At the same time my visual field started to dissapear. Like, black dots started to come in, and I understood I can't drive the car like that. I should stop somewhere. But I can't see anything, I can't follow along the road, I can't even stop somewhere safely. Like I am falling asleep in my driving seat. Next thing I know, I hear somebody out of my car, trying to open the trunk. In the first moment, I became afraid that it is police and that they will charge me a penalty because I was driving with my ligts turned off and who knows what happened when I feel asleep! Then I think: "Oh ****, no, it's my parents, they came back from the seaside. They will find me like this and worry like crazy, what happened to me! What will I say to them??".
As I was slowly waking up I was thinking like: "Am I in a car or ?" It was such a vivid dream. It was scary. It gave me chills.
I dream about these things a lot lately. Once, when I just started reading your books, I dreamed that I encounter the blackness. The nothingness. Like I am entering it. I understood: there is nothing in there. No fears, no hardships, but no happiness either. No-thing-at-all. It was scary, also, and a little bit sad, too. I was so grateful when I woke up that I could experience that so vividly in a dream.
No questions, just ranting... Thank you Jed <3
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