INVISIBLE GURU FORUM

I started to realise how much the ego is preocupied by itself and how others are seeing it... and how much energy is lost in that process. All that limited energy going to waste. And why? To be looked at as good, nice, pretty, smart by fictional characters that are going to die as well as mine will. I mean, what the ****?

I saw how many things I did just to be percieved in a certain way. I was preocupied by that and missing the opportunity to be present, to feel, to hear, to see, to touch. Drained in the web of my mind. Having to be somehow to be good enough.

Well now that I can see it I plan to stop doing it deliberately. I want to do just things that I REALLY want to do, that is my genuine wish and inspiration and stop being who I am not.

And what I REALLY want to do is to find out where am I and what is this place, WHO am I. What is happeninggggg