O.K. Captain, going right through it, seeing the illusion, we will see how this ship will flow...
I am wondering about the following.
When I am in a situation that causes me distress (that is the easiest condition for me to remember that it is not real), I remember - ok it is not real, it is an illusion. I still feel inside it, feeling the uncomfortableness but the situation is lighter in some way, I don't take it so seriously. I then try to look at it from the position of the observer, detaching myself from the feelings of distress/uncomfortableness. But what happens is that it seems to me then like I am actually not really in the position of observer, but that I am imagining that position IN MY MIND, so in mind I say - ok i have to go to the position of observer, and then I CREATE that position in the mind to "satisfy the form", so to say... but it is some imagined position, it is not the "real observer". It is imagined. It gets easier but it gets easier inside the mind, I feel like I am fractaling the mind so to speak, and not liberating myself from it... Do you understand what I am trying to say?
See the illusion... I am now imagining in my mind that I am seeing the illusion. I am faking it. It's a start, in some way, huh? Btw. loving the spiritual autolysis, now I understand what it does, it is like a drilling machine for the psyche, really cool tool...couldn't imagine it till I started to use it. I have a trust that it will lead me far....
Love you