All stories have a beginning a middle and an end. Part of the trick of Maya is to emphasize the beginning, rationalize the middle and make you feel like crap at the end. It's just the way she works. Without wisdom and awareness, you will just go back and repeat the cycle. Look around you if you don't believe me. It's always easier to see things in others than in one's self.
Buddha is purported to have said that being human is suffering. I say that living in stories is (eventually) suffering. The juice of the story is created by endorphins, much like a few glasses of wine, or perhaps strong coffee or chocolate… but then, there is the let-down… it is inevitable. Look and see for yourself. Have you not experienced this?
The alternative is to understand this mechanism, to watch it and be intensely aware of its arising. You may, with a little luck, end up loving everyone, realizing you are everyone and live with what is to me, a kind of steady hum of peace and love for all of Maya's show. Yeh sure, I know it sounds like NABS, and all I can say is go for it and find out for yourself. Humans are like parachutes and only function well when open. Can you be a little more open tomorrow, and the next day… and the next day… open to the possibility that you are already T/R, that you indeed God and nothing less.
Shortly after experiencing T/R I reflected back on my personal relationships, in particular the ones that I felt involved love. It was one of the biggest shocks of my life to realize that the 'person' I was had never loved another 'person'. How could a story love a story? Story plus story only creates more stories. I had a crystal clear realization that no person has ever loved another person. It's impossible from the perspective of T/R. During those past times I certainly felt I loved others, did the typical ''loving'' things, but it always had a ''I, me, my, mine'' content. I realized that what I did was for myself, to support or fulfill the story of the person I thought I was.
''What are you talking about Jed? Life would become boring.'' I understand your concern (Maya's concern really). I can only share my experiences in this arena and yes, there was a point where the unprompted and just-below-consciousness stories dropped off and things went kind of flat, a certain sameness came over everything.. but there was a sub-current of peace and joy. Following that there was a previously unfelt sense of freedom. I was no long experiencing life through my stories. I was free to make up and play with any story I wanted. Because there was no longer a belief that stories are real, there is no suffering experienced at any point in the story. They are stories of joy and wonder and are very easy to created and drop when one is living in joy and wonder.
Examine the stories you have woven around your teacher(s). Any guru (worth his salt) will tell you that there is no difference between him/her and you. Will tell you that you have all you need right where you are... and will welcome you with open arms and an open heart, upon coming and also upon leaving. You only need to relax into what you really are and let go of the stories that tell you that you are a ''human''