Dear Joel:
Every effort you make moves you closer... to... death... but then, along the way, you may grow up slowly or very quickly. In my experience, observations and (short order) beliefs, you may become H/A in a micro-second before death (a little late IMHO) or it could take 50 years (approximation).
But, as I read this, I am intensely aware that it's just what Truth is to me. I think many Guru types fail to be of service by only presenting their set of possibilities. The possibilities are infinite, probably the only thing you can be sure of.
Find out what it means for YOU to be an adult or realized. This is what is so friggin wonderful about this whole setup.... it NEVER ends... the ultimate and only true infinite game is THIS.. YOU, RIGHT NOW IN THIS GAME... and on and on and on, but don't think it's all on and on
****, not true. It's on and on freedom... more explanation than that would just be b.s. words and God knows we have shared sufficiently.
You are more wonderful than you can ever imagine, brilliant light and love, being held down by WHAT? Like I said, different for everybody, so Joel, what is holding you down?
Stop squirming....
Love ya, Jed.