Hi Jed
Like a phoenix rising from its ashes, self reappears from time to time and then dissapears again. I guess when some final doubt or conditioned pattern has left the system forgood, it will not reappear again.
As I have mentioned in my previous post, the tables have turned. There's no longer an I experiencing being/freedom/selflessness now and then. There is being experiencing a sense of self from time to time.
So there is no more rider and no more ox to ride. Just the constant flow, the eb and tide of experience.
Nothing has changed, everything is as it is. It has always been this way. It will always remain this way. No birth, no death. Just this. That's all.
Marcel