Dear Kozi:
Welcome to the forum. I will answer your questions below, as best I can.
Here are my questions: You said, in your books, there is no “self”, and you also said Maya or Ego is a false self and it’s the architect of delusions. If there is no self, where is this false self come into picture or how is this Maya’s delusions express itself without the self?
If there is no “self” or no “I”, are we instruments for life to express itself in any way it wants and we have no say so on the matter? I ask this since you said we have no free will at all.
If we have no say so and life does whatever it wants, what is the purpose of waking up? Is it to know the games life is playing so we can play it together peacefully without fighting it?
STOP, I said to myself. There are no answers... I repeat to myself. What's left of my mind is grinding away for something that will satisfy you. I sense you are fairly intelligent and perhaps analytic. Sorry bout that.
Your mind is the block to understanding, but it's something that has to be pacified, put back to sleep so you can see what is, not what you want to 'is'.
Let's start this way, tell me what you are experiencing right now as you sit there and read this. This is back to basics. I want you grounded before we do anything more. Forget all previous b.s. (It's all b.s.).
Feedback?
Love ya, Jed.