Author Topic: Lionox  (Read 1075 times)

lionix

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Re: Lionox
« Reply #15 on: June 18, 2017, 04:30:14 am »
Hi Jed, this morning a song was playing in my head. Over and over. So i tried to make an effort to get rid of it. Then this voice came in, i should probably meditate on it and accept it and all that blabla. Then I realized this 'accepting' is also an effort, so now i have this song and my spiritual ego playing in my head. and just for an instance this thought came up: 'to whom is all this sh*t happening?'  this void (I use void by lack of other words) came up. Not like a experience with bright lights or anything else. But more like 100% nothing. There was thought but not me or mine. And even that would not describe it. After a few sec adrenaline came in and my thinking was, if i pushed this further i probably have a psychosis or something.

So my question: should i go further on that 'i am (not)' or neglect it because even this was a spiritual nonsense game maya plays.

thank you and btw, love your new book!